To you, my friend...

in the sudden moment of it all, you come along, with no advanced notice. all of a sudden, you take residence, you took over. after leaving me breathless, you made me lifeless. You are cruel! Then, in a moment's time, I thought you left. and long after, you came back again, because you are a traitor! Okay, you've got me alright, you own my body; my entire life, you cut short. But one thing for sure, You can't take my spirit within me, Because "SOMEONE"else owns me. I know where I'm headin', and where I'm going, you can no longer follow, You lose after all, and I certainly win!

what? 52??

I know, I can't believe I am now 52 yrs old. 10 more years and I can retire, if I want to and if there's enough $$ to sustain us for our daily needs, haha... I am just thankful to my Creator that I got to where I am now. I don't have the riches of this world, but my riches lies in my relationships with my family and friends. Every passing year, a lot of things have become clearer and clearer as to how Jesus is ordaining my life. Not all pleasant, and yet, it is those that taught me so much in life. There's a bridge in a song that Ria gave me in a CD and it goes...

"Lord, let me take your Word and shine it all around, first let me learn to live it, Lord. And when i do it well, help me to never seek the crown, for my reward is giving glory to You.

And that is how I want my life to be, that it will not matter much about me, what I want or what I desire, but that my wants, my desires be what He wants for me.

As I thread the mid-life, I still aspire some things though, but I want it with no pressure, only as I please and when I can. I can't say this is what I want to accomplish this year, but something along the highway of my life...sort of a bucket list:

1. To learn to play the guitar and be able to play and sing for my Bible/prayer group meetings. Realistically, this will take me a while, but for now, to just learn the chords and to practice regularly. 2. To write. Anything, short story, fiction/non-fiction combination, but with me putting my heart into it. I recently connected to an old classmate and he's one among the few that I got an encouraging word, just write! All along, my husband and daughter kept saying that to me but I felt like I don't have the depth when I write stuff...but I will, I really will. 3. To attend a reunion of any of my class, elementary, high school or college. Just one reunion will do. This one seems to be the most feasible, as it can happen soon, maybe this year.