Tuesday, November 16, 2010

what's in the middle is what counts...

I was trying to find a good lesson to share to my ladies group this wednesday and i came across this devotional from Rick Warren that is shared to me by Tita Cora Bautista everyday and it spoke about worrying. That God sets the date of our birthday, the date of our death, but what counts is what we do in the in between of birth and death. That made me realized how true that statement was! That rather than being worried about things, which does not add anything to our life, rather, instead, we must just pray and not worry about tomorrow because our Great God who is the provider of all our needs will indeed take care of our days. Let's be reminded instead of what is needed to live each day. That we may do the works God has imparted to us, to share His message of salvaton, to be a source of hope and encouragement to others, that our way of living will reflect the goodness of Christ.
Let not the busyness of life rob me of my time with You, my Savior, my best friend and above all, my God. That I may have more of a discerning spirit between good and evil. Lord, teach me to number my days that I may gain a heart of wisdom(Psalm 90:12) and live for You and your glory! In Jesus' Name, Amen!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

2nd Round of prayers needed after Remember the Rainbow-Sept 3??

The loan papers finally arrive! The Sept 3 posting was just the 1st of the round of fervent, persistent prayers. Now, it requires more fervent, more persistent prayers, probably with fasting!! I was actually quite astounded of the information, actual figures in our home loan. Not that I didn't know how it turned out that way, but greatly astounded by how much the banks make so much money from homeowners.
Today, I read anoher way to understand what it means to pray "in JESUS' Name", that In the name Jesus Christ, there is abundant power. However, calling upon Him in prayer is not a magic charm to get what we want. Rather, it is a signal that we are laying down our personal desires and our own way of getting things done. In so doing, we commit to follow God and bring honor to Him. (John 14:14)
It also reminded me that all that we have is not even ours, but HIS. Can't take a claim of ownership because we are just transients, stewards, hopefully, wise ones, and I have to shift my focus in putting our faith into another test. Hebrews 11:6 just got projected in my mind and heart. "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
So, the 2nd round of this is not just praying and asking, but seeking (more) and believing that God is still in control, and that He will be the One to make "the" way for us, in the decision we have to make, that in all, it will bring honor and glory to Him.
I listened to the HillSong "none but Jesus" because i just love the line that reads "in the stillness, in the quiet I know that You are GOD" and it just brings me to a trance of of tranquility and peace, and followed it with Don Moen's "Thank you, Lord", to bring out my gratefulness despite whatever it is we are in right now. Then, there's calmness and assurance that God is watching over us.
The prayers of faithful family and trusted friends are what keeps me and Ray up because we know, we battle with all of them. My utmost gratitude to each one who remember us in prayers. I can't wait for the experiences we will thread in this new chapter of this life's journey, to see how Jesus can miraculously work His ways, in His perfect timing...
"thank you Lord, for what you've done, you're doing and still will do, even in the uncertainty of the days to come, the only assurance we have is that YOU remain faithful to us. Thank you!"

"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for i have put my trust in You.
Show me the way i should go,
for to You i lift up my soul."
Psalm 143:8

Monday, October 11, 2010

Mara Radoc De Jesus

October 8, 2010....one of my very few good friend, passed away.

To you my dear friend Mara:

no more pains, no more tears;
now, your one wish is granted,
to see the face of your Creator.

leaving behind, your husband and son,
but in God's loving care,
trust that they will be looked upon.

one day, someday, we'll see each other again,
look over us too, from where you are.

now, it's your turn give a good word to our Lord Jesus for us,
to watch over us as we continue to live in this crazy world...

i'll miss you a lot my friend.

Friday, September 17, 2010

To wait patiently...it's got its reward!!

Today's reading just reminded me of simply how impatient we are. This is something that strucks me all the time, it hits a deep core in my being, because it's just TRUE! No denying, not only am I impatient, I am a sinner. Everyday I fail God, one way or another, and every night, I have to go to confessing my sins. One of it is my impatience. He says, 'His mercies are new every morning", and thankfully, I receive His mercies daily. Knowing things about us, our inner self, we all have our weaknesses, our dark secrets and onlyGod knows what it is, and there is no denying. But being the Great, Good God that He is, faithful and forgiving, and very patient with us, I know I get forgiven untiringly by Him. As the next day comes when I pray again for His portion of mercy, for strength that I may avoid falling trap into temptation, and that I be patient to wait upon Him and learn to simply hear His still small voice in the quietness of my heart while tuned into His Word.
May you be blessed by today's reading, as we continue to declare our total dependence upon Him, and no one else.

September 17
God Acts On Our Behalf
Philippians 4:6-7 -Charles Stanley

We have become so accustomed to this hurried world that we've begun to demand speed in our spiritual life too. However, God "acts on behalf of those who wait for him" (Isa. 64:4 niv). Wise believers endure until the fruits of His labor appear.
In this devotion, we'll look at three reasons believers are called upon to wait.

First, God may be preparing us to receive His blessings. Perhaps we need new skills or greater maturity. Sometimes people require fresh spiritual insight before their hands are ready to hold what their hearts desire. For example, David waited years to sit on his appointed throne. But when he did, he was a wise, strong, and battle-tested king.
Second, the Father is often teaching His children to have confidence in Him. How would believers ever learn faith if God immediately fulfilled their every request? In my own life, the Lord has often said two words: "Trust Me." And He has never been late to meet my needs. No matter how we justify rushing ahead of God, doing so amounts to saying, "I don't trust You."
Finally, the Lord will at times withhold blessing to protect us from harm we can't see. We may never find out what caused the delay. But be assured that God examines the object of our desire closely before placing it in our hands.
Waiting is rarely easy, particularly in this instant-everything world. But rushing ahead of the Lord short-circuits His plan. Believers who do are left unsatisfied, and they often must live with terrible consequences. Be patient while the Lord works out details
. His best is on the way.

Friday, September 3, 2010

remember the rainbow???

In my last entry, I mentioned about the rainbow, a sign God gave in the story of Noah's Ark. As most of you know, our dilemna with our home loan situation and believe it or not, it's been almost 2 yrs when i started praying for this. The process has been more or less, 1 to 1 1/2 yrs now. the group helping us notified us that the month of September is when we will find out the verdict, whether we will be approved or not. What a scare! Wild thoughts hovering over my head! But, let me go back to the rainbow story...
My mom, to me, is one person whom God has given me as a source of stretching my faith. it was her that said "this is the house!" when we step foot in our home wayback 1996. About a week or two, she told me, "avine, it is okay to ask God for a sign, Stanley said." I said, "yeah, like the rainbow in Noah's ark." Then, she said, "I saw a rainbow already, so our house problem is already answered." Of course, pessimistic me, "ye of little faith" me, just kinda' "ahum, ok..." on my way to work, i said to God, "Lord, show me a rainbow then."
My first sighting of a rainbow was when i flipped the channel for this bachelorette tv show which i don't normally watch, i just have this habit of leaving the tv on, waiting for my regular fave shows, waiting for Ray to come home from his construction project in Millbrae. When the other guy was told he is not the one for the bachelorette and while walking back before leaving the show, he saw a rainbow, and to him, it was his mom saying he'll be fine, in Fiji islands, where the show finale was...that was one rainbow i saw. The next one was in the news, online, flipping the pictures from the anticipated hurricane arrival in the east coast. In between these 2 rainbow sightings, I keep telling God, "Lord, show me a real rainbow, one I will see from the skies". But alas, nada!! But by towards the end of August, my heart is kinda' sinking in so much bad news, about friends, Nelson, Mara, Nikki, my brother Joey, and our house, to mention just a few. Then comes a devotional reading, that hit home, "ye of little faith". So I said to myself, "self, just give thanks to the Lord for everything." Boom, another rainbow on a picture, it brought a smile on my face and I just thank the Lord. Constantly, if and when i am tempterd to be in a defeated mode, I just say "Thank you Lord." I even sing it to the tune of Don Moen's version of "Thank you, Lord"
Sept 1 came, I was at work and doing some reimbursements and an email flash popped at the lower right box of my screen adn saw the lady's name who's working on our loan. I hesitated to go back to my email screen, I blinked and said to myself, "Lord, be with me", then i switched to the email, clicked on it and read it. I had to read it over and over, at least 3x because I might be reading it wrong, but it said, "In regards to your loan modification, I just want to inform you that your loan modification came back from underwriting on 8/24/2010 as approved! They are currently prepping the modification documents which should be getting sent out to you shortly. The new terms are still not known. Please let me know as soon as you receive the paperwork from your lender." I was kind of shaking, in tears, but above all, in a shocking awe of seeing God in His full, majestic, beyond human understanding miraculous ways. It's ALL HIM! My heart was truly overflowing in thanksgiving, in much gratefulness, i couldn't contain it. I called Ray first, then Ria and my mom to tell them the news. In my heart, all i could say was, even if we didn't know the terms yet, (the "thomas" in me saying "what if we can't afford the new terms?, etc..."), if God has already allowed us to go this far, HE is going to see us til the end of it! Amen, Amen, Amen!
That night, Ray and I prayed, a prayer for thanksgiving and a prayer of forgiveness, for the moments we doubted, moments when we feared and lost focus on God's faithfulness, and our moments of impatience. My prayer kept switching back and forth, until towards the end, it was still a prayer of deep, profound gratitude. It made me realized, the depth of my gratitude to the Great God, that even in the many times that I was tempted to switch back to my old self, relying on my ways and putting God aside again, that I acted upon the prompting of the Holy Spirit to just be patient, to wait, even when I am getting annoyingly impatient towards things, events and people. The reality of God's Word to wait patiently on Him, in His infinite wisdom and not depend on our silly self, to fight my own self reliance and dependence. What a great relief! What a great load released! Just like in Joshua, when the Lord said that the battle is not ours, but His, not by might, not by power but by the Spirit of God...
I know there will still be more battles to fight, so much more heartaches, disappointments and frustrations, battles to fight our own weaknesses, problems in finances, in health issues and so much more, but Psalm 84:5-7 definitely spoke loud and clear in my heart. He allowed me, my soul to be so weakened, to have nothing and learn the sacred truth to admit that my Help only comes from the Lord Jesus Christ, the One who is Mighty to save, that God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever, in my uttermost weakness, His strength is made perfect. My comfort is that they will go strength to strength (v.7) even if I go through the valley of Baca, Valley of weeping, because joy comes in the morning, His mercies are new every morning.
As always, my prayer is for everyone who will read this to build up their faith in the Lord God Almighty, to never disregard the cross, the ultimate sacrifice and form of the greatest love of love God has ever shown us, despite our weaknesses, shortcomings and great sins. The test is when we are at the bottom pit and making the choice whom to submit to and obey. Rejoice with us in this 1st victory and in continuous intercession for all the saints in need of heaven's grace. Let us storm heaven's gates with our faith filled prayers because, as Charles Stanley puts it, God did not design prayer as simply an avenue for requests; spending time in conversation with our heavenly Father is meant to help us know and love Him more, allow Him to find delight in us when we spend time with Him and when life turns into an aventure of faith.
Have a great Labor day weekend everyone, and be safe.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Jesus said, Let me do my work....

in my earlier blog posting, i spoke of all my close friends stricken with the Big "C". I had my moment Tuesday morning when i got 3 emails, Monday night from Bebo about Nikki's ER surgery adn diagnosis, then an update from two of my best friends, Mara and Helen. The news were just devastating and before i got out of the car, I asked my husband if we could pray first, and we did. I kept asking the question why all these sad news, what else can i do to help them out? In a moment, all i could say was, "i don't know anymore what i can still do". Then getting in to work, i got an email from from Ria, it was Job 5:18, and the a devotional from Charles Stanley and it was about discouragement and all these Psalms were in there. Psalm 3:2-4; 16:7-8; 63:6-8; 77:12; 119:15. I read it all, over and over until I heard the very still small voice of God telling me. "Stop trying to work it, this is where it ends for you. Let me do my work, from this point on. TRUST me!!!" Whammmm, as always, it's not about me, it's about HIM, and His mighty power, Him being the great JEHOVAH, the great I am. Loud and clear, just stay focus on Him and no one else, just Him......
"Jesus, You're such an awesome God. Just like what bebo share, we will give you the chance to move. So, we will wait patiently for Your wonder miracles. Give me the rainbow, show me that yes, indeed, it is done!".

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

more blessed to give than to receive ..acts 20:35

The past weeks have been news about family members and close friends stricken with life threatening illnesses. My good friend Mara, who is fighting cancer, from breast cancer to now a cancerous lymph node found in her neck, and has been hurting physically, pain all over her body and hardly any strength to move. My nephew Manuel who was diagnosed with only one kidney and it causes so many negative effects in his physiological parts, not to mention the many effects of the many medications he takes. My friend Nelson, who had lung cancer, but is having a hard time dealing with the after effects of the massive chemo/radiation treatment he underwent. Last night, the shocking news about Nikki Bharwani, with a cancerous tumor in her uterus, resulting to taking out her right ovary adn fallopian tube. That at a young age, she had to go through this. Though no conclusive result yet as to the stage of cancer.......waiting. My brother who needs a colonoscopy but has no money to pay for it. My youngest brother who is worried about where he will stay after this year, and so much more...
I want to say how grateful I am that despite all medical appointments i had, yearly checkup, uterine biopsy and mamomgram, as bragging as it may sound, is the truth that I am still thankful because I am in good health, I have insurance that covers my medical needs. But it's not about me...it's about those who are in true and dire need.
It led me to read the book of Habakkuk. Today also, while listening to KFAX, one of the pastor preacher said something about our God being not the God that says, "opppssss"! In chapter 3, verses 18-19, it gave me comfort that I can have all the questions I have for my family members and friends' state and conditions, yet it teaches me to wait patiently. I need to rest in God's sufficiency. I may never know God's specific plans for each of them, and though I do not see any outward indications that the Lord is working in their lives, I am assured that HE has not neglected them, that HE continually watches over them. For that, "I will be joyful in God my Saviour."
Though I have been going to the same people to ask for monetary help, and as disheartening that only the same people respond, I will continue to ask for help so we can help and bless others who are truly in need.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

This was a devitonal shared by Ria to me today and somehow, my last enry kind of tied up with this. Enjoy the read and hope it helps in your daily walk with god and in your own personal spiritual growth...

Our Daily Bread Radio is hosted by Les Lamborn
Read: Matthew 6:25-34
Do not worry about tomorrow. —Matthew 6:34
I was worrying about a few things as I sat in my car under a shade tree at lunchtime. Then a robin, with a fat worm dangling from its mouth, landed near my door and looked up at me. The robin was a vivid reminder to me of Jesus’ words in Matthew 6:25-26, “Do not worry about your life . . . . Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them.
Are you not of more value than they?”

Years ago, in an article in the Denver Seminary magazine Focal Point, Paul Borden gave some helpful suggestions for worriers:
Start a worry list. Write down what you’re worried about. The bills. Your job. Your children or grandchildren. Your health. The future.
Turn your worry list into a prayer list. Ask the Lord to work in those situations you’re concerned about. Pray specifically for your needs and depend on Him.
Turn your prayer list into an action list. If you have any insight that there’s something you can do about your cares, do it. As we turn our worries into prayer and action, Borden says, “Paralyzing anxiety can be replaced by concern for the responsibilities of life.”
Why not start your list right now?
Don’t fret about the future
Or be consumed by cares;
Instead take all your worries
And turn them into prayers. —Sper
What you have made a matter of prayer should cease to be a matter of care.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Help, Lord (Ps12:1a)

...frustration of a husband with daily work & finances and can't offer any help;
...daughter's frustration with the love one's hypocritical lifestyle;
...friends with lung and breast cancer in remission, and are physically feeling very weak;
...a mother and daughter friend struggling with a relationship;
...worry about home loan situation;
...health problems of family members;
...jobless family and friends;
...temptations of sin lurking around our lives;
...moments we want to just fret, whine and scream how unfair life is;
...times when we feel alone, lonely, empty and unnoticed;
...co-workers and bosses who are just impossible;
...and so on and so forth.

Psalm 61-:1-4 " Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. "
Isn't God just amazing! That even in the midst of life's chaos, He reminds us always that it is HE alone that we can go to and depend on. Though, some does not give us answers to our problems, HE gives us comfort instead. Despite our weakest, yet He remains and gives us the ounce of strength we need to go on., the hope to cling on to until the day of His return.

There is the reality of hell and the promise of heaven, and yes, another day to remain hopeful!

Revelation 22:12-13
"Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me,
and I will give to everyone according to what he has done.
I am the Alpha and the Omega,
the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.
"and surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."
Matthew 28:20b
What a blessed assurance. Thank you, JESUS!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

It's been a long while. Simply because i'm no tech savvy and due to memory lapse, forgot my password and 2010 was just a busy year. I started a new job away from Pediatrics, and went to H-STAR Institute (Human Sciences Technology Advance Research). Well, I have to Praise God because despite the busyness, I still have a job. I serve 5 directors, and believe me, it's not quite fun, adding to it setting up seminars and workshops and all it's additions, I get my crazy days, very tired days, but over all, still good. God's word in 1Thess 5:18 "Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" just makes me realize and appreciate whatever is in front of me, day in and day out. I love the area where I am at, it's by the oval, the center of the university. I love working here at Stanford because the environment is so wonderful. When I am too overwhelmed at work, I just step outside and walk around, sit inside the church and it gives me rest and some peace and quietness. Walking along Palm Drive gives me a glimpse of God's greatness, goodness and awesome work because it is just a wonderful sight to behold specially in the early morning when it is still empty and not busy. Being in the center of the campus, it gives me a sense of where God is, that He Himself is in the center and can simply keep an eye on me, no matter where I am. I can't help but be reminded His word in Psalm 5:3,"Listen to my voice in the morning Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to You and wait expectantly." That He is there, right in the center of my life and is hearing me, whenever I call unto Him. It gives me the strength to face the day..."Thank you Lord Jesus, for being the God of the universe, for hearing my tiny voice despite the vastness of your creation. For in You, I am special."