When God speaks, it's up to us to hear. It's up to us to quiet our spirits and let His tiny voice ring in our ears. That's my choice this year. Reading further Isaiah 61, The year of Lord's favor...favors! with an "S". With expectant heart to the unknowns....
Ria's pregnancy is just going good. We are excited and anticipate the coming of our Addison Rae. All is good, so far and it's past her 2nd trimester.
Mom's trip to the Philippines was quite a disappointing one to her and maybe somehow affected her emotionally. Her resistance seemed weaker and thus, her sciatica attacked again and it took us 2 ER visits, and several doctor's visits, to no avail. Until the nurse had all medicines stopped and gave her steroids, antibiotics and started using nebulizer again. Now, that worked and sent her back to her normal self slowly and regaining her resistance back again. Just in time for another trial that was about to occur.
By early May, on Ria's side of the pregnancy term, was an abrupt twist. She came in for a regular doctor's visit and then boom, Addi was born at 30 weeks and 5 days, due to preeclampsia. It was nerve-racking. It all happened so fast, and that made us think, it was all in God's perfect timing though. Throughout the whole ordeal, I was on my knees asking the Lord for His grace and mercy in their behalf. That My Ria be kept safe despite the soaring high blood pressure and for our baby Addi not to be affected. I'm sure my son in law, was a nervous wreck himself. But this is where I realized and fully grasp what full surrender was. Did that mean I had no fears? Of course not! But despite all the nervousness, the fears, I can honestly say, my heart was steadfast in the hope that all else will be okay. Romans 8:28 kept ringing in my ears, there's gotta be something good out of all this! I scrambled on my phoned every night for God's comforting Words while I am on Ria duty and Psalm 112:6-8 truly guarded my heart.
6 Surely the righteous will never be shaken;
they will be remembered forever.
7 They will have no fear of bad news;
their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
8 Their hearts are secure, they will have no fear;
in the end they will look in triumph on their foes.
We were all tired, body and mind, specially my Ria, whose mind was probably wandering every single second, but we prayed, we cried, and above all, we trusted in The GOD Almighty whom we believe is All Knowing of it all. Trials, I realized, is meant to build up one's faith in God, to understand how to be at peace in the midst of the turmoil and to trust God despite the unknown. And to develop more patience, as I reminded Ria and Andrew because it will be a road they have to trek now that have their little one to care for the rest of their lives.
Every single moment as I talk to my God, I thank Him, I tell Him to truly go deep into my heart and see how I am greatly filled with gratitude and to help me keep that in my heart specially in times I tend to complain or fail to see how He is working my life into something good, great and wonderful even if I don't see it, even if I don't understand it. My prayer always to never even let the Holy Spirit depart from my heart, for guidance and wisdom.
Our little Addi will grow to memorize a lot of bible verses, learn bible stories, learn a lot of music that will forever thank and give praise to God, because I will remind her of the Mighty work of God's hands over her life and all the people who prayed for her. We can't wait for God's miracle to come home in this house God has blessed us with. I always recite to her when I leave her at the NICU, Number 6:23-26. Her progress are good, she's developing and growing stronger and healthier as days go by. Thank you for all who prays for both mama, daddy and lil' Addi.
And in the end, we can say, "as for me and my house, (all of us), we will (choose) to serve the Lord Jesus Christ."