Hormones and Faith.
What a combination, right?
Hormones? Affecting our faith?
How? One never thought of this until one gets there! Hormones, who would think this can be a big
trial of life? And this is nothing to be ashamed of sharing, so here I go...
It all started when I
turned the big 5-0! I was eager to get
started anew at 50, thinking, it was an age to start living my life now. I can
go back and pursue another BS degree, psychology maybe? Which to date, I have not started. Or start a business! Which I did in 2014, but failed miserably. Or
start writing?Which I thought I am
good at but never dared to. I married
early, separated after less than 2 years, left the country to seek a better
future for my daughter, got re-married to a wonderful man, Ray. So after so many years and with us now settled, I figured,
I can live my life now. But the body seemed
not willing. It took a toll on all the
stress factors and was not cooperating at all. And all because of HORMONES. It fluctuates like a roller coaster, good
grief! It was damping my body, mind and spirit.
I already grew up with weak immunity to start with. Then in my late 20’s, diagnosed with
hyperthyroidism. Unknown and known stress
factors contributed at that time. The
adjustments of being new in this country, starting to work and learn my new
environment and people I work with, the stress of physically being active and
doing things alone and on your own, trying to build a new life. Then add up other illnesses such as
endometriosis, polyps in ovaries, esophageal problems in swallowing, terms like
achalasia and dysphagia. Moments when I
can trade my torso to rid of my pains goes to my mind most of the time. I was tired of being sick, constant visits to
the ER. Doctors, nurses and hospitals,
they became my best friends. But I was
really getting tired of it.
This is when my spirit got damped, cold and aloof. I develop a negative attitude and mind frame
and reflected in my actions. It was
overwhelming and overshadowing my thoughts, and it became ugly. I started being resentful, angry, and
bitter. I distanced myself more than
before and I didn’t know how to deal with it, I couldn’t communicate with
anyone fearing they may think less of me, I got afraid.
Now, this is where FAITH comes in. These trials are good
because it draws me closer to God and no one else. I have love ones that surrounds me but it is
the love of Jesus that holds me and sustain me.
I go to His word and there, seek my comfort because at this point,
there’s no answer to my hormonal conditions that affect me, my bad gastric
problems, my thyroid condition, overall, my weak immunity. The good of it all, it makes me educated in
how I will deal with my condition, how I can minister to others who feels the
same way or close to how it affects them.
It gave me all the chances to pray with them and introduce or make Jesus
known and how He help me big in ways unfathomable. In moments when fear creeps in, I keep
reciting verses that calms me down, that assures me not only of God’s great
love for me through His Son, Jesus Christ, but of His constant, never failing-unchanging
love for me.
My hormones will still be
in a roller coaster mode, but the love of Jesus is constant and will never ever
fail me as long as I hold on to Him and trust in Him even when I feel like
backing out, slowing down, or doubt life and myself. Most of the days, I would journal my day, my
thoughts, and end it with prayer. Yes, I
write my prayers because it helps me talk to my Best ever friend, my Saviour
and Lord Jesus. It is in those writing
quiet moments when I hear Him talk to me, through His Word. The Bible is the one book that spoke to me in
every area of my life. It has shown me
my past, the wrongs I did and still do, but it also spoke to me about how I can
deal with it, get out of it. Jesus, the cross, the Father’s love and the
Spirit’s guidance is all I need to battle this raging hormones. Through Jesus,
Victory is mine. 💓
Just to share, for reading and information, see link below:
https://www.webmd.com/menopause/guide/guide-perimenopause#1
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