December 17, 2018 was when I actually learned it. We were on our way to Atlanta Airport heading back to San Francisco with my mom and brother Joey. When I read her text to her sister, I became so anxious. After checking in, while waiting for a wheelchair for my mom, an african american lady was singing Christmas Carols, she was being video taped. In the middle of all her songs, all of a sudden, she sang "God will make a way". I'm not sure if all of you are believers of the Lord Jesus Christ, if you have accepted Him as Lord and Saviour of your lives, but I AM! Upon hearing her sing it, I was in tears (hiding it from my mom and brother) and I kept saying, "You are so awesome, Lord. You gave me such a quick response and You calmed my anxious heart." As the lady left, i gave her a hug and said "thank you" for being an instrument to an answered prayer right away. It was definitely Jesus in the form of her. I took that flight with a very sound assurance that He will indeed make a way for our CJ.
Days went by, we are constantly in communication, I ask Brothers and Sisters in the Lord to help me pray for her, I asked my church to keep her in prayers as other friends of mine have told me that their churches are in prayer, and even fasting for her. I can't thank enough my faithful prayer partners whom I've asked to perseveringly and earnestly pray for her.
The month of December was dedicated to reading the book of Luke, and as I was doing so, even before the news came out. I remember reading all the miracles Jesus was doing, and little did I know, there was a reason for me reading all that, because I/we, (my whole family), will and are expecting for the miracle we are praying for. Healing for CJ. I really believe God will give us this miracle.
I have to admit, extreme sadness wraps my heart when i think of her. I can't say that I didn't fear, but more than that, is an assurance. Yes, an assurance that God will really make a way for her. I don't know, I can't explain, but I just firmly believe it! January 16, 2019 is her first chemo, and talk about other circumstances that the enemy uses to cripple us with fear, but prayers of the saints are bombarding heavens and despite the swelling-wrong use of needle etc, they managed to get things in order and get her session going and finished it. She even went to work for a few days. Zoelee got sick though, and again, we were very concerned. One day, was a text of her going in the hospital because she felt feverish and was kept overnight, and with Mell being in China. (I didn't know until much later) So we kept praying, messaged my group to keep her in prayers again. Praise God, she got over it.
Every like, early morning I'd wake up and would pray for her, for the Lord Jesus to be her Emmanuel, to comfort her and grant her the strength and endurance to cope, physically, mentally and spiritually. One can't help but be tempted to go on the "dark side" when you are in such situation, I can't even begin to imagine what her and Mell are going through. But I am praying for them as much as everyone else.
On January 24, 2019, on my way to work, early in the morning is when i always tune in to my daily radio station, KFAX and my driving time coincides with Pstr. Shelley of Church of the Highlands Bible reading, prayer, then music. Then walah, the song "God will make a way" plays again. I was in tears, just started thanking Jesus over and over, because again, that blessed assurance that He will make a way is re-affirmed once again. Do I still get afraid? Of course I do. But every time I am tempted to go to the "dark side", I counter it with verses I can remember and utter it all the time, over and over until peace envelopes my heart again. 1Corinthians 10:13 is one that I quote so often. I even remembered Tita Cora telling me about 15 years and I searched for it. it was Isaiah 38:1-8 and though the actual chapter does not really relate to CJ's case is the promise of healing, the miracle God sent which was mind boggling. But because Hezekiah remained obedient, he was healed. Again, the key is obedience, faithfulness in our relationship with Christ. Tho maybe unbelievable to others, but for me, I know deep inside my heart, CJ will be given an extension by the Lord. I keep praying that this is not out of my arrogance, but simply the faith I have in the truth of Christ, my God and Saviour. That it is only by His grace and mercy.
We shall be patient in waiting upon the Lord, to do what He deems necessary to do, to be the God whom He says He is and no matter what lies ahead, He is in full control. I can't explain it, all I know is that in my heart and I am very assured of this, HE WILL MAKE A WAY. And ALL Glory we will give back to HIM and HIM ALONE.
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